Keep Calm and Adjust your Tiara

Today is the first day in about ten days where I can sit. Sit with not having to wait in a line of any sort, wait to be picked up to go celebrate many things or wait to have my car warm up before I head off to my next stop.

 

Right now I am staring out to the blizzard of snow coming down and sitting in a coffee shop. It brings such pure joy to enjoy a cup of great coffee and listen to Christmas music. Today marks the first time I had to pay back my first student loan and it makes me want to gag. But its apart of my big girl pants I have been trying to fit into the last few months.

 

This past weekend some of most favorite people graduated from college. Though I already had my time, it has hit me more this time around. Knowing just about everyone is going off to start their next chapter and we no longer will be in the same town makes my heart ache a bit. Realizing more than ever its really time for a big change and to move on. No one can take those memories away from you and yet some of the best times of our life is still to come.

 

Change is something that has turned my life upside down before and still adjusting too. But for myself I need it most. I need to get a different job, move to a different city and say goodbye to five years in Menom for good. I know I can do it, but having the best plan before I do so is a must.

 

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

Log Jam Christmas party :)

 My cousin, friend, and Bride to be at family Christmas.

Jack and baby Luke. Cutest thing ever.

 

 

XOXO

I am thankful

 High school friends that still come together 5 years later.

 My brother whom I love so much.

 The Hollidazzel Parade

Paul Waker who passed away in a car accident this past weekend. Such a tragedy of pure talent. Prayers go out to his family and friends. Such a beautiful soul gone too soon.

"If one day the speed kills me, do not cry because I was smiling." - Paul Walker

23

At the perfect place, log jam to celebrate 23 years. Some of these girls in here have now celebrated 5 birthdays with me! I cant believe how time flies. My day was perfect for turning 23. I had lunch with my mom and all the little ones gave me so much love that day. I hope this next year is better than the last. I feel my whole self changing and craving something more from this world.

 We visited Wilmar and Taylor the weekend before my birthday. We never get a good picture together.. I'm glad this one turned out decent :)

 Kate, my first best friend in college and Karissa I've gotten close to over the years! Love you two.

 

My heart has been heavy for change lately. Needing to move on from this place I am currently at. I know God has something amazing for me out there and I don't think its here anymore. How do you close a big chapter of your life and start a new fresh one? I guess Ill find out. I'm so thankful for the memories that I will carry forever and the best friends I have made that I will never forget. We are all ending up in different places in this world, thankfully we take a piece of each other where ever we go.  

 

XOXO

11 days

11 days and I will be another number in my twenties. Like each year your birthday is always different, and what makes it the most different is what happened in the year before you reached the next number. I cant express this emotion I feel for my birthday. As a college graduate and not knowing my next step or plan makes it seem like this birthday is not as special...  which I know is a horrible way to look at! Because its one day where you celebrate your life, who you are, and all the things you have to look forward too!

 

November is a month I love for not only my birthday, but a few other things as well! On my birthday I share a very special holiday with my grandpa, Veterans Day. That holiday is so special to me for him. A true hero for so many things in my eyes. This month also holds, black Friday (gasp) and thanksgiving. Its a month that leads up to Christmas and has so much joy to offer.

 

I am blessed to have reached another year in my life and have also accomplished so much in my last! I have a hunch that this next year will be nothing but new beginnings for so many reasons.

 

XOXO

so

So, I just changed my photo on my blog for the first time. I have had this blog almost three years now. My roommate at the time who also happens to be one of my best friends created this blog for me. I know not many people know about it, but I am okay with that. It really is just a way to express what I am feeling in words. Like writing in my diary but typing on a keyboard instead. A lot has happened to me in the last three years. Things totally out of my control but Gods plan all along.

 

I am now reaching the 23 mark. Graduated. Living away from home. Single. Making not enough money. Working two jobs. A friend. A daughter. A sister. A 4 yr old teacher. A server on the weekends. And a little girl in Gods kingdom.

 

I know where I am right now I wont be here long. Where I am off to next, I think about everyday because I don't know. I want to pick up and explore but I always feel something tugging on me. My twenties are for all mistakes and lessons. For my "ah ha" moments and to take in every moment I can. To have the littlest things makes me happy and to never settle.

 

With all the engagements around me and wedding talk. It doesn't have me excited for my own really (well maybe a little) but it makes me realize that I have so much to look forward too, to feel and to see for my future.

 

I have a whole bucket of faith with me each decision I will be making in my 23rd year. Because this year I just think something totally unexpected will happen.

so honored

The day has finally come, my cousin who has also turned into a best friend is engaged! I couldn't be more excited for her and to know she is marrying one heck of a guy who I have grown to love! Today we spent the day at the wedding fair! It was so fun seeing all the brides there and people they love most. We were very successful today with some booking! Before we went in she gave me this special gift in asking me to be her maid of honor, I couldn't even read it all before my eyes filled with tears, I said yes and hugged the crap out of her. She was so beautiful and her ring just glowed.

 

The picture of us above was taken about a year ago, when we spent a fall day with our grandma and aunt attending a winery, went into some shops and had dinner. I was reminded today, even though I knew it was about a year ago that Ali and I discussed our weddings a bit. I knew she was going to marry Jared and I was single at the time and still currently am, but we agreed to be each others maid of honor. We don't have sisters and have too many great friends to pick just one, so how perfect to have it be family. In one year later the day has come. I am so excited to help plan and be apart of the so very special day. The planning will be so fun, all leading up to the day she will marry her best friend.

 

XOXO

5 years ago

I was starting my senior year of college. The emotions are sinking in that tomorrow when everyone else goes off to school, I will be off to work. While college students pass time with their friends between classes going on adventures, playing pranks, napping, eating, laughing, doing an assignment last minute, or simply doing nothing at all. The chapter has now been closed in my life. The four year vacation is now over and so begins the process on where God wants me to be. My college experience could not of gone any better, the friends that turned into family, the experience, jobs I've had, boys I've loved and the memories that have been made. Some of my best friends I have found here. We had such a big loving group and I am so thankful for each friendship. How do you even try to describe something so great? You cant because you lived it. I could ramble on about my four fabulous years but I have pictures and stories to help keep it a live. Growing up is emotional, stressful and scary.

 

It was weird not preparing for classes, getting supplies and receiving emails from my professor's. In high school I never thought college would come nor did I think after college would already be here. The person who I am now is a big thanks to the last four years and how it has shaped me and taught me so many ways. I appreciate every hurt and joy that I have overcome along the way.

 

I am glad for technology so I can keep in touch with the people who light up my world each day, my girlfriends.

 

"you get a strange feeling when you're about to leave a place. like you'll not only miss the people you love but you'll miss the person you are now at this time and place because you'll never be this way ever again..."