amazed

This saying fits perfect for the last few months of my life.  I know I share a lot about the great boyfriend I have, probably because he is so great.  Even when I doubt his ability to me, I wanna slap myself for that.  Sharing my feelings has never been  problem in my life, with him; it has been.  And I haven't quiet figured it out. Well, that's also a lie. I feel like I will be judged. And that is wrong for me to think that way.  He is my boyfriend, my friend, my go to guy, my shoulder to cry on, and the ear that wants to hear my voice, thoughts and ideas.

I am a very emotional person, or like I say, I have a lot of feelings.  Some too strong.  We are on different levels with each other on many things and that has been eye opening for me.  Working with someone who believes in different things that you do and also handles situations differently too.  He has told me he will be more sensitive to my feelings. He needs to be or this wont work.  He has been someone so great in my life I wouldn't want to lose.  He has come into my life for a reason.  That I am not sure about yet due to my crazy but wonderful life I am living right now.

P.S My great boyfriend said this song is what he thinks of me. Sweetness.

everything old

 I love Tea

 dangling earrings is a must

 vintage nik nacks

pink roses

I am currently falling in love with everything old.  The thrift stores are my new go to store.  I have always loved old things, but lately they have been filled with so many treasures!  I currently just did my room at my moms now and have found everything at a thrift store. My dear friend is also a treasure whore too. Its awesome.  I also find it cool that everything you buy there has been in someone else home before.  That might sound creepy,  but I think its cool.  I bought a cute little tea pot to fix my tea obsession lately. I love it.  I wish for some pink rose soon (ahhmmmm boyfriend?) HA he knows. So maybe some day :)

thoughts, questions and dreams

I loved swinging when I was a little girl. Now I wish I had time to go sit on a swing, place my feet in the sand and see how high I could get. Thinking about it now, sooths my mind.  Bringing in 2012 I have a better head on my shoulder for many things.  2011 was a very rough year in the beginning but towards the end it had some great blessings.

I sometimes question if where I am is where I am suppose to be.  I'm sure a lot of young girls my age do the same thing. I have so many dreams, and ideas, and goals that I feel I wont reach one day and they can only be created in my head.  Some of my dreams have changed without me having a say in them and some goals have been adjusted too. I am very content with who I am, but still am striving to be someone better. I am a firm believer in focusing on one day at a time.  Now rushing things, but enjoying the moment you are in. Life is just to short to worry and plan far ahead when plans change all the time. I am working on that, and have been proud of myself for not worrying to much about what the future might look like with my family, school, my boyfriend, my career.  It will all play out the way its suppose to.  I must believe that.

I am so thankful for all that I have and for the people that love me.  When my mind starts to go crazy I must stop, think, and remember everything will turn out.

Someone very special shared this song with me today, and I love it.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year

Im a bit behind with everything happening in my life, but the pictures that are about to blow up this post will help. This Christmas was different but also a blessing.  Still being with the people I love most but starting over with some new traditions.  New Years was awesome.  Being with people who I have known for years and havent seen in years was awesome! God works in funny ways but I think he wants this year to be a good year for me.  Already in my Junior year I have met my boyfriend, who is amazing, new friends who have turned into best and turning 21 all has been nothing but joy.

 I went hunting for the first time with my dad and brother! They were impressed!

 Christmas Eve at Grandpas!

 Christmas Day ice fishing with dad!

 Daddys Girl

 New years Eve.

 Neighbors since 4th grade!

New Years Day. Hott messes!

its beginning to look a lot like christmas!

This weekend I am so excited about! My dads side family Christmas party and boyfriend is coming with! Never have I brought a boy for a family function before, so I am a bit nervous and excited at the same time!  He is someone so great so I cant wait to show him off.  I'm also super excited to see all of my family, because we are so big its hard to get together all the time. Especially for me because I don't live close to anyone.

Sunday we are also going to the Hollidazzle parade! Down town MSP.  This will be big for him since I don't think he has ever been to the twin cities.  Pandora has had the Christmas Station on the last few days now.  I just love the gift of giving and it will definitely mean so much more this season!

PS. New Obsession: Tea with lemon. Its crazy good.

something amazing

Waking up bright and early just so you can lay in bed and snuggle until its really time to rush out of bed because you lost track of time and your going to be late! Well, that's me almost every morning.

I know I am cheesy, weird, constantly smiling and laughing, he never leaves my mind, missing him when I'm not with him and sometimes thinking about a long future with him scares me.  I'm only 21 and have never been in love before nor have had someone treat me this well.  I know I cant say I love him after almost 3 months but I am falling in love with him.  They say when you know you know, but I do not want to rush anything.  I have my whole life ahead of me and often I think how I would love to share it with him.

I pray all my girlfriends will find someone great one day, someone who they miss all the time and fills their life with joy. That that man never goes a day with out kissing your forehead, squeezing you tight and calling you beautiful more than once.  Here I never thought a man like this could exists.  I'm so blessed to have him in my life!

One day someone will walk into your life and make you realize why it never worked out with anyone else.

were walking in a winter wonderland

Enjoyed a wonderful weekend filled with Christmas and friends!

Friday was a Christmas party and the roomies Grandparents, and Saturday was spent getting bundled up and heading out to the woods and cutting down a tree with the boyfriends roommate's!  What a wonderful way to get into the spirit of Christmas!