Its the most wonderful time of the year!

Meet the newest addition to the family, Beau :) I cant wait to spend a few weeks with this nugget at home!

Celebrating Christmas and the end of finals. One semester to go.

Got all my gifts early this year and all wrapped :) I must say I am impressed with myself!

I have been having many mornings to myself with the tree on and admiring the white covered ground. Today I am enjoying this cup and watching one of my favorite movies, The Holiday :)

Two of my dearest friends. We got to cocktail a Christmas party of Jaime's grandparents and had a blast!

 

Heading home tonight for the Holidays and I simply cant wait to be with family!

 

XOXO

No Words

Twas' 11 days before Christmas, around 9:38
when 20 beautiful children stormed through heaven's gate.

their smiles were contagious, their laughter filled the air.
they could hardly believe all the beauty they saw there.
they were filled with such joy, they didn't know what to say.
they remembered nothing of what had happened earlier that day.
"where are we?" asked a little girl, as quiet as a mouse.
"this is heaven." declared a small boy. "we're spending Christmas at God's house."

when what to their wondering eyes did appear,
but Jesus, their savior, the children gathered near.
He looked at them and smiled, and they smiled just the same.
then He opened His arms and He called them by name.
and in that moment was joy, that only heaven can bring
those children all flew into the arms of their King
and as they lingered in the warmth of His embrace,
one small girl turned and looked at Jesus' face.
and as if He could read all the questions she had
He gently whispered to her, "I'll take care of mom and dad."
then He looked down on earth, the world far below
He saw all of the hurt, the sorrow, and woe
then He closed His eyes and He outstretched His hand,
"Let My power and presence re-enter this land!"
"may this country be delivered from the hands of fools"
"I'm taking back my nation. I'm taking back my schools!"
then He and the children stood up without a sound.
"come now my children, let me show you around."
excitement filled the space, some skipped and some ran.
all displaying enthusiasm that only a small child can.
and i heard Him proclaim as He walked out of sight,
"in the midst of this darkness, I AM STILL THE LIGHT."

Written by Cameo Smith, Mt. Wolf, PA

 

This is so beautiful. God hold them all.

wise words

"Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth; oh nevermind; you will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded. But trust me, in 20 years you’ll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can’t grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked….You’re not as fat as you
imagine. Don’t worry about the future; or worry, but know t...

hat worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm on some idle Tuesday. Do one thing everyday that scares you Sing Don’t be reckless with other people’s hearts, don’t put up with people who are reckless with yours. Floss Don’t waste your time on jealousy; sometimes you’re ahead, sometimes
you’re behind…the race is long, and in the end, it’s only with yourself. Remember the compliments you receive, forget the insults; if you succeed in doing this, tell me how. Keep your old love letters, throw away your old bank statements. Stretch Don’t feel guilty if you don’t know what you want to do with your life…the most interesting people I know didn’t know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year olds I know still don’t. Get plenty of calcium. Be kind to your knees, you’ll miss them when they’re gone. Maybe you’ll marry, maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll have children,maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll divorce at 40, maybe you’ll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary…what ever you do, don’t
congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself either – your choices are half chance, so are everybody else’s. Enjoy your body, use it every way you can…don’t be afraid of it, or what other people think of it, it’s the greatest instrument you’ll ever own.. Dance…even if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room. Read the directions, even if you don’t follow them. Do NOT read beauty magazines, they will only make you feel ugly. Get to know your parents, you never know when they’ll be gone for
good. Be nice to your siblings; they are the best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future. Understand that friends come and go,but for the precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and
lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you knew when you were young.”

 

 

Hay Day!

Meet Armani

 

She is the owner :)

 

Beauty :)

 

Kiss from a horse, checked off the bucket list :)

 

I use to ride when I was little and wish I still could do it as a hobby. My very dear best friend own two and we adventured off to see them yesterday. I love being around horses and I'm thankful that she enjoys sharing them with me!

This senior year could not have brought on more surprises. Of course I thought my friendships would grow with my dear girlfriends but I also got blessed with more! By working at Log Jam, I really have another family. Everyone is so loving and always has your back. I am so thankful for the experience and people I have there.

 

By turning 22 I have made the decision to not move back this summer and sign a lease with new girls since my roommates and I are all doing different things.

 

I will be applying to grad school this winter and praying to God that I get in to further my education to be able to help students.

 

I have a boyfriend. I still cant believe how much prayer, friendship, talks with your mom and talking out loud can help heal a broken heart.

 

This summer, I would have never guessed I would be where I am today. I have learned so much in my 21st life, it amazes me that I truly am growing into a women. I know my heart will get broken again and that I will fall in love again. But I believe that the quote above is so true. They way I fell in love with Tony is not the same way I will fall in love with Jason (if I do) its a more real relationship. I am so thankful for the relationship I had with Tony and what he taught me about myself. I am also anxious to see what mine and Jason's relationship will be like as well. God just has the most amazing plan.

 

Today as I was driving to my family Christmas party the sun was shining and I was singing along to songs. I caught myself smiling. I then had a conversation with myself that I am still so young and I love where I am now in my life and the people that are in it. I cant wait to take wonderful trips with my family and girlfriends. To explore this beautiful life and everything it has to offer.

 

Today was the first big snow fall :)

I am enjoying it with a Christmas movie and Chili!

 

XOXO

Start of 22

 My lovely Brother surprised me!

 A true best friend that came to spend the weekend

 New fabulous friends I work with

 Three of some pretty awesome blonde's I love

 Beautiful flowers from a new boy in my life :)

My roommate and also best friend just out on the town

 

My birthday was everything it needed to be. Full of love, surprise and relaxation. I work almost all weekends so it was great to have the weekend off! My mom, Steve and brother came to celebrate Saturday night. Jack is not of age but since my mother was there he got to drink in the bars due to the Wisconsin law :) Then my actual birthday on Sunday my dad came to make my roommates and I breakfast. I'm so thankful I can still celebrate my birthday with both of my parents!

 

I was showered with love my girlfriends as well and I could not be more blessed to have them in my life. We had great talks and laughs and those moments are truly treasured.

 

The beautiful flowers are from a boy who has made me smile a lot lately. My heart has healed for the most part from my first love. God has put these new people into my life for a special reason, I'm not going to push people away because I'm afraid of a heart ache.

 

I so excited for this next year of my life, it will be a year full of bitter sweet changes and I will take them all with a smile on my face. God is so good and has a beautiful life for me.

Gone too long...

I do not like the feeling that I have been absent from this diary. I will hopefully write next week and express my heart on this page. Life has been so busy, God has been so good, and new year is coming in a few days, the year of starting 22 and I could not be in a better place. I am so blessed with all that is happening and the smile that never leaves my face. I am having fun and enjoying this ever so precious life.

 

Stay tuned...

this crazy great life in pictures

 

 

 

 

These momets are not in order according to when they happened recently but I have been busy and my mind has been clustered with thoughts and feelings lately.  When they slows down I will write about the deeper emotions happening. But for now all the happy, fun and loving times must be shared!

Cheers to Fall being here!

one week of summer left

First things first, baby brother is all moved into college!! I am so excited for him and his next journey of life. Moving him in brought me back to my freshman year and now I will be a senior in college. My how time flies.  I think this place is a perfect fit for him and I cant wait to see him strive.

 

Second, the house I grew up in for 13 years is now sold.  My parents designed this house together and after the divorce we all knew it had to sell for money reasons and emotional reasons.  Though we have a little over a month to get everything out its bittersweet.  My dad will finally get a fresh start that I have been praying for.  Packing up 13 years and say goodbye only means I'm really growing up.  No turning back to the slumber party nights or the nights in my room that I have probably cried over every boy I have ever liked before HAHA  my roots will forever be in my home town, as my dear friend Scotti told me today... its not the home that made it great it was the people who lived there.  Very true, I hope a great family is moving in here and can continue to make more memories. I am so thankful to have grown up here.

 

Third, I have one week left of work then its back to school.  I am so excited and thrilled to be back.  I am so in love with my school, house and friends who are there.  Its more of a family.  Senior year... blows my mind.  I have so many goals set for myself this year that I am going to work so hard for.  Along with the "No" diet.  You cant say No when someone asks you to do something. Its the last year we will all be together in the same town and thinking about it makes me sad, but I cant think of that right now.  God has the most amazing plan for us all and though we spent four years learning, growing and discovering things about ourselves that will still continue but we wont see each other all the time. Cheers to a great year!!

 

Four, I got the iPhone!!!!! I am so excited for everything about it! I wanted it most for the camera because its flippin awesome. Continue to impress me iPhone.

 

That's all for now :) I hope this week is a great one with my parents and getting everything packed that needs to be.

summer is coming to an end

Three weeks left, that is all, at home. Where did the summer go??? Senior year. Such a bitter sweet thing. Too many group shots will be taken, too many laughs, tears, drinks, sleep overs, last minute assignments, outfits and memories will be made. Cheers to senior year.

My brother and Stella.. "good" friends. So cute.

Two of my bestest friends in the entire world who know all my secrets and love me for who I am.

Going to be a very busy next few weeks, moving brother into his dorm for the first time, all the last minute dates with family and friends and packing. May God be with me when I come close to breaking down.

Cheers!

lately..

 My dear best friend has finally joined the club of turning 21!!! Celebrating her all weekend :)

 two of the best friends a girl could ask for

 my other fabulous best friend since 7th grade!

 love the candid shots!

 add these two also into my other best friends.. Shout House was awesome!

a new best friend I have finally met!

After this weekend I think that concludes all the 21st birthdays!  I have helped celebrate so many its been unreal.  Now that 22 is around the corner it wont be that big of a deal any more HAHA  I am so thankful for all of the ladies in my life. I have some of the most amazing friends a girl could ask for and I feel so blessed.  They truly are my soul mates and I could not make it without them.  We have celebrated and cheers together every weekend this summer and it has been wonderful!  I cant believe August is right around the corner! Where has the summer gone? I am so excited to get back to school and make this senior year the best yet, but I will enjoy my last weekends of summer also! Looking forward to this upcoming weekend of going back to school and going out in my small college town, love.

Cheers!

a week off

I am so looking forward to this week. The main reason being.. I have it OFF! I am so thrilled. I don't know if I will do much sleeping in because I'm a girl who doesn't like to waste her day, but I will not be opposed to nap taking.

This week though Ill be spending some time with some of my best girlfriends. One I haven't seen all summer and the other my roommate. Then our good friend is flying back from New York and Friday will be a celebration for that!! I'm just so thankful I have the best gifts in the world, my girlfriends. They truly can get you through anything and its always good to take what they have to say into consideration.  There is nothing sweeter than sitting with a great friend sipping some wine or some coffee, looking fabulous in an outfit or in our pajamas. Its simply great.

I also have been having some negative feelings about my ex... but i think that's OK. We all have those days were we are either hurt, angry, sad, tearful and many more could go on to describe them, BUT with God and a good attitude you can get through them. And I do. Its all apart of Gods plan I know, the mystery of the future can be so exciting but yet hesitant also.

I pray happiness be showered over all my loved ones and we all cherish each day the Lord gives us!

fly away

Why am I falling apart now

I should be stronger than this

I get angry, sad and glad all within one minute

why do I have to cry with my dad at dinner

why cant pain and memories go away

things that made sense, start to back fire

why do i feel so weak

am I being the person I am meant to be right now

life does not slow down so its hard not to rush things

I want to run away for a week

Pray when its hardest to pray.

Ill be ok, I know that.

But its ok to be sad, shed tears and eat some ice cream in the mean time.

4th of July, my favorite.

Starting the 4th off right with some festive drink purchase. Had to buy it because of the bottle.

The outfit for the celebration. All purchased at the Good Will. Total is under 10 bucks SCORE.

Cooler of goods :)

Friend Sam :)

Just relaxing on Lauren's boat

Finally reached the Sand Bar!!

Water fun!

Love.

Roommate :)

Love again.

more festive wear!

The 4th was fabulous with a lot of good friends, good drinks, good about of sun, and wonderful memories! Cant believe its over! Summer is now almost half way over, so sad. I don't have many big things now so I'm looking forward to a lot of relaxing. Heading a bit North today for some more family fun and celebrating!

Cheers, XOXO