I still have a purpose on this earth

Saturday morning was a bit rough to say the least.  My mom and I were headed to do some shopping and it had started storm bad that morning. I was driving and we were just talking about life, well the downs of it at that moment.  How many problems the Focus has for one, and what we were going to do that afternoon regards to shopping.  My mom even offered to drive, but I knew I could handle it.  The rain was getting heavy and the stupid defrost switch did not work, so plan B right?  Well, that included my mom unbuckling her seat belt and taking a napkin to wipe off the wind shield so I could see.  And in that few minutes I started to hydroplane which led to us rolling the car and sliding in the ditch on our side..

All's I could think about was "ill be OK, stay strong, God is with us, we will be OK"  And to his mercy we were.  Since my mother didn't have her seat belt on she flew around in the car, so sad.  She landed on me and i started to panic because I was stuck and Ill's I wanted to do was get up pop open the door and find my phone to call 911.  To the angels who had already stopped the police was on their way.  I immediately called my Dad with the horrible news and told him we were OK but to meet us at the hospital.  The of course I had to call my brother... he had to know and poor thing that was his wake up call because he was sleeping.

A man had taken off his shirt in the pouring rain for my moms face since there was blood everywhere.  Other angels climb on top of the car to help me and her out since we were too weak to get our selves out.  More angels had also gave us blankets to wrap in since it was cold and rainy.  We still have a blanket that we now call our "angel blanket" Ill never be able to thank those people but we are ever so grateful for them.  God was really with us that morning along with my grandma.  We rode off in the ambulance, me with no scratches and mom in bad pain because her head had hit the windshield.  She looked like she got beat up but is getting better each day with all her bruises and swollen face.

God still wants us on this earth, why?  I'm still trusting the path of my life in his hands and that day was just proof miracles happen since we could of been killed and it was not our time to leave.  Just so blessed with all the kind strangers that stopped and the warm wishes from family and friends.  Just another reason to think, what a year this has been.

On to happy news now!  That night was my dear friends 20th birthday and we went to the fun Chino Latinos, did some shopping and celebrated that night.  A rock star I was.  I did hit the hay early but I was tired and sore so I was allowed to HAHA. Scored some cute dresses that I cant wait to wear :) 

Looking forward to the rest of the weekend and weekend! Oh and ONE week till WE FEST :)

Us girls that night with the birthday girl Lauren!

Oh PS this song I heard from a good friend is just too cute!

XOXO

them boys

So, lately with all the fuss and buss about life, I always try and find a reason to smile.  And today my roommate did just that for me.  With a phone call to catch up and a card in the mail to help remind myself that I am special and that I deserve the best and he IS out there.  The old fling I had for about three months.. well he still is in my head. Why? Well because he still tells me he misses me and that I will always be special to him.  It just sucked that life had to get in the way of us trying to build a relationship.  So, I guess I can say there is proof that total strangers can become special people.  I do miss him, but I have not told him that.  I have too many other things on my plate.  Colby I thought described my thoughts for this boy very well.

I hope to see him before summer ends.

night swimming!

Us girls last night out on the boat in the 100 degree weather! Well worth it.  It was such a pretty night with the sun setting, loons calling, and good tunes to rock to. Oh and cant forget the great people!  I got to be the captain once also :) the bugs were just so bad we had to move.  Me and L also were the first two to jump in and to our surprise when we popped up the boat was taking off. Yes, talk about rude.  I handled it very well where she on the other had was a bit panic HAHA the night ended with some drinks and great talks.  FINALLY, my great girl Scotti is now home! And it was such a joy to have her presence back.  Cant wait to finish this summer off with crazy adventures!

XOXO

bits of sunshine

best brother in the world

a true best friend

fishing for the first time in years!

this song is AWESOME!

these words

I didnt know 20 would be so hard.

I'm sure I will be repeating myself, but that's usually how I talk so I think I will at least get it right?  I never thought when I would hit 20 it would be a roller coaster of emotions.  I thought maybe it would be fun, or adventurous, scary even.  But no, I really had to grow up. I have had to deal with things and go through things I never thought I would. But God does these things for a reason in our life and we are suppose to grow and learn from them. And that is what I am doing exactly.  I often cry, well all the time actually.  Life just gets too stressful and I feel like I don't have anyone to turn to to help me out.  Understand my emotions, hold me and just let me cry.  I will start to feel sorry for myself until I remember all the gifts I have in my life and how someone else is walking in worse shoes than I am.  I truly am a firm believer in never judging a book by its cover.  So many people including myself can walk around with a smile on their face and know one would ever know they are hurting inside.

I never would of thought I would think this, but I kinda want summer to be over.  Its been filled with drama, tears, arguments, hurt hearts, dumb boys, and no money.  But that's life right? Sure is, I couldn't imagine working another job besides my nanny one. I hardly have time for friends and with my parents being divorced I don't get to see one of my best friends, my mom.  It has been really hard for me lately.  She is a strong hard working women, and a daughter always needs her mom and lately I feel to far away from her emotionally and physically to call her my friend.  Its so hard with the lives we have now.  I'm really making choices on my own and telling her them after they are made.  Where she use to be apart of the making process and listening to every detail I had to say.  It just been really hard this summer. 

But looking back so far I have had some great times with good people. Met a boy I thought would be different but as of right now, he is sadly like the rest.  I thought me and God both saw something special.  I still do believe that person is out there for me. Hiding obviously since I haven't found him yet, but he will want to treat me well and never let me go.  A very good friend told me this today as I was venting about my boy situation " God has a plan for you and would never leave someone so giving and thoughtful alone." of course that made me cry.  But that's what best friends do. They are there no matter what and say the things that you need to hear.

Some inspirational quotes that I am enjoying at the moment:

Also, a shout out to almost every girl in this picture who has touched me in so many ways, has always been there no matter what. Thank you for that!

XOXO

north country

Summer time has hit us once again in the Midwest with temps up in the 80's and I LOVE it! I love laying out and going to the beach and being out on the boat.  That's what summer is all about, and of course the bonfires and the friends that make it perfect.  Last night my brother wanted to go wake boarding so we did :) I love taking pictures and I can actually wake board myself, butt I decided to be the photographer last night.  Thank goodness he has a sister who likes to take pictures of him HAHA... he hates it.

Awesome!

Jumping in

Massive air... then fell HAHA

Dad and I :)

Brother and I at the end of the night :)

Newest fav song and its about Minnesota... the home state :)

Enjoy the wonderful weather!!

XoXo

he didnt kiss me!

So, my week has been stressed to the max. School, work, Mary Kay, family and friends.. the one thing that kept me smiling was a "new" boy who was saying way to sweet of words I thought I would never here!  He goes to my school, which is a PLUS because I have never dated anyone that really lives close to me.. not saying we are dating BUT if we did we would be close :) he is a bit different then what I usually go after but he is tall, plays basketball, and it cute but blonde.. (I like tall, dark and handsome) he lacks on the dark HA! 

But I will tell you, he took me on his boat, took me to dinner with his sister and her boy, bought me dinner and our dairy queen after, opened my doors and made me smile.  He was nervous and shy because he didn't show much affection towards me... which was different and I really wanted him too!  But its OK, we have things to look forward to now :)  A cute moment we did have was in the boat we were going fast.. 65 MPH fast may I add.  It was also sprinkling and I was getting pelted with rain so I put on his sweatshirt he gave me and the hood also (hellooo, the hair cannot get ruined) and he swerved, which can be scary! So when he did that I always gave him a look then smiled and laughed.  He then told me "you have a beautiful smile" which made me smile again. Too cute. 

Moral of the story it was a great time, but different. Perhpas the kiss next time :) I brought it up because it surprised me and he said he was shy when it came to those things, so thats alright! A more traditional date which is just fine.  He made breakfast for me and was waiting on the table when I got up.  I think there will be another one, but we will have to wait and see :)!

On to the night before, I had a little gathering at my house with my dear friend from school and my hometown girls, and some other friends... we had a good night but the "gathering" got a bit hectic and never again will I host HAHA

US girls :)

Kate and I a few weekends before!

My brother and two of my best friends, what a stud :)

XoXo