Timing

They say timing is everything right? And as I grow up I believe more and more in that statement. But when I came across this version of it, it made the most sense to me. Anything that takes a lot of courage for you to do, there will never be a perfect time. When you want something or need an answer, don't hesitate to think that tomorrow you will have more courage because the longer you think about it the more it will make sense. When in reality it is only going to drive you nuts until you make a decision and then peace will rain through your body.

Now that most of my best girls are in the real world now I'm realizing that I can start figuring out where I belong and who I belong with. When will you really know when the right time is to let someone in your life, to start making more time for them than for the other most important people in your life.

My twenties thus far have taught me a lot of lessons on love, friendship and life. I am about to make some big changes in my life but I know its where I am suppose to be... I think right now away. Prayer is the only thing that keeps me sane and at peace with myself. I am so thankful for my creator who never fails to make my heart feel that everything will be okay.

On another note, this Valentines was spent like no other! Lots of love was spread with all the 4 yr olds in our room. Preparing for it with heart shaped cake that the kids got to decorate and eat. Seeing them all excited to hand out their valentine's sure put a smile on my face! Looking forward to one day being swept off my feet :)

 

Today watching yet another snow fall cover all the earth

XOXO

small pay checks

Today is another me day, a day off to get inspired, think, read and maybe dig through the goodwill store. I've set my date to leave a place a town I have lived in for the past 5 years. Its exciting and sad at the same time. The amount of growth and memories I have hear could never be replaced. But, that's apart of life right, we can only grow from our past. We grow into the best possible person we were meant to be and there would be no way of getting there if it weren't for our past.

 

2014, is the year of change for me. I feel like I have a wall up for myself with change. Being afraid of something new... settling for a life that I know I deserved so much more. More of my heart racing and my hands sweating. I'm 23... to everyone else that is super young but to me its old because I have nothing figured out yet. I keep reminding myself I am young... I have so much to look forward in this life God has blessed me with. Some of my girlfriends are planning their wedding! Golly G I cant imagine. I without a boy am focusing my time on my family and friends. Making them feel loved always until its my time. I can be patient with that.

 

There truly is not enough time in the day to think all the thoughts I want to think and see all the people I wish to see. I chose to have this blog as a diary, to one day look back on my twenties and see all that it has taught me. Its a nice journal to have. Its a place full of secret feelings and holds truth to things I believe in and stand for.

 

Yes, I am know to take selfies :) I absolutely love the 4th of July and the American flag... so why not take a picture right :) as quoted by one of my best friends: You are one of the select few who can pull of classy selfies. I applaud you and your great accomplishment. HA! I don't post them often but once in awhile.

 

Now I will continue on with my me day, sipping coffee in a cozy place with a handsome man sitting near me to my left :)

 

CHEERS

Cheers to you!

"It’s the oldest story in the world. One day you’re 17 and planning for someday. And then quietly and without you ever really noticing, someday is today. And then someday is yesterday. And this is your life. " OTH

 

Today one of my best friends makes her way to the big city. I am thrilled for the adventure she is about to embark on. To a friend who has struggled the way I have and to a friend who has celebrated how great life is as much as I too. We lived together for two years and God truly blessed us with the rarest friendship of them all. Someone who accepts every flaw you have and drops everything to discover something new in this world is a true gift. J, I am so excited for you. The emotions come and go knowing I wont have you in the same city anymore. Thank goodness for memories and stories that could maybe make us famous one day :)

 

I love you so much I cant wait to visit and also for your return home :)

Keep Calm and Adjust your Tiara

Today is the first day in about ten days where I can sit. Sit with not having to wait in a line of any sort, wait to be picked up to go celebrate many things or wait to have my car warm up before I head off to my next stop.

 

Right now I am staring out to the blizzard of snow coming down and sitting in a coffee shop. It brings such pure joy to enjoy a cup of great coffee and listen to Christmas music. Today marks the first time I had to pay back my first student loan and it makes me want to gag. But its apart of my big girl pants I have been trying to fit into the last few months.

 

This past weekend some of most favorite people graduated from college. Though I already had my time, it has hit me more this time around. Knowing just about everyone is going off to start their next chapter and we no longer will be in the same town makes my heart ache a bit. Realizing more than ever its really time for a big change and to move on. No one can take those memories away from you and yet some of the best times of our life is still to come.

 

Change is something that has turned my life upside down before and still adjusting too. But for myself I need it most. I need to get a different job, move to a different city and say goodbye to five years in Menom for good. I know I can do it, but having the best plan before I do so is a must.

 

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

Log Jam Christmas party :)

 My cousin, friend, and Bride to be at family Christmas.

Jack and baby Luke. Cutest thing ever.

 

 

XOXO

I am thankful

 High school friends that still come together 5 years later.

 My brother whom I love so much.

 The Hollidazzel Parade

Paul Waker who passed away in a car accident this past weekend. Such a tragedy of pure talent. Prayers go out to his family and friends. Such a beautiful soul gone too soon.

"If one day the speed kills me, do not cry because I was smiling." - Paul Walker

23

At the perfect place, log jam to celebrate 23 years. Some of these girls in here have now celebrated 5 birthdays with me! I cant believe how time flies. My day was perfect for turning 23. I had lunch with my mom and all the little ones gave me so much love that day. I hope this next year is better than the last. I feel my whole self changing and craving something more from this world.

 We visited Wilmar and Taylor the weekend before my birthday. We never get a good picture together.. I'm glad this one turned out decent :)

 Kate, my first best friend in college and Karissa I've gotten close to over the years! Love you two.

 

My heart has been heavy for change lately. Needing to move on from this place I am currently at. I know God has something amazing for me out there and I don't think its here anymore. How do you close a big chapter of your life and start a new fresh one? I guess Ill find out. I'm so thankful for the memories that I will carry forever and the best friends I have made that I will never forget. We are all ending up in different places in this world, thankfully we take a piece of each other where ever we go.  

 

XOXO

11 days

11 days and I will be another number in my twenties. Like each year your birthday is always different, and what makes it the most different is what happened in the year before you reached the next number. I cant express this emotion I feel for my birthday. As a college graduate and not knowing my next step or plan makes it seem like this birthday is not as special...  which I know is a horrible way to look at! Because its one day where you celebrate your life, who you are, and all the things you have to look forward too!

 

November is a month I love for not only my birthday, but a few other things as well! On my birthday I share a very special holiday with my grandpa, Veterans Day. That holiday is so special to me for him. A true hero for so many things in my eyes. This month also holds, black Friday (gasp) and thanksgiving. Its a month that leads up to Christmas and has so much joy to offer.

 

I am blessed to have reached another year in my life and have also accomplished so much in my last! I have a hunch that this next year will be nothing but new beginnings for so many reasons.

 

XOXO